Tylor’s POV
‘Tylor, we need to tell you something… we know it will upset you, but you need to know.’ Jumpnow says.
‘What?’ I say with a trembling voice, I’m scared of what they are going to tell me.
‘Tylor… you lost your baby…’ Renee says. A silent tear rolls down my cheek.
‘No.’ I say. ‘No!’ I can’t believe I lost the only thing I had left of Zeke. Bradie hugs me but I push him away and start crying.
‘Tylor…’ Bradie pleads. ‘We’re here for you.’ He says and hugs me again. This time I hug him back and cry into his chest.
‘I wanted that baby!’ I cry.
‘There’s always Bradie.’ Renee says.
‘What?’ Bradie says.
‘No I want ZEKE’S baby! I don’t want anyone else’s!’ I say and cry into Bradie’s chest again.
‘I know, I know.’ Bradie says and rubs my back.
‘You’re free to take her home now.’ The doctor tells us, but freezes when he sees me crying.
‘You just told her?’ Renee nods as we all stand up and start walking towards the exit of the hospital but I just can’t take it. I fall to the ground crying.
‘Tylor?’ Renee starts freaking out.
‘Calm down Renee.’ Bradie says and picks me up. ‘Come on.’ He holds me tight to his chest, my tears soaking his shirt.
As soon as we get to Renee’s I rush into the bathroom, lock the door and pick up the sharpest thing I can find. I hold it to my wrist and dig deep into the skin. I gasp in pain. ‘I love you Zeke.’ I whisper.
Bradie’s POV
We get home and Tylor runs straight to the bathroom. After a while I decide to go check on her. Outside the door I hear a gasp of pain. I know exactly what she’s doing. I try to open the door but it’s locked
‘Tylor, open the door right now!’ I say, worried. ‘Amanda! Renee!’ Another gasp. ‘TYLOR! Stop it!’ I say, desperate now. I bang on the door. ‘Amanda! Tylor’s locked herself in the bathroom!’ Amanda runs over.
‘Don’t tell me…’ I give her a look. ‘OH MY GOD TYLOR! OPEN THE DOOR RIGHT NOW!’ She says banging on the door.
‘Fuck!’ I hear Jesse exclaim from the lounge room. ’Jumpnow get a screwdriver!’
‘No! Don’t come in!’ She yells through the door. Jumpnow runs over and we put the screwdriver in the lock and turn. Amanda and I rush in but Jumpnow moves away, knowing not to crowd her.
‘Tylor…’ I plead when I see her sitting in the corner of the room with blood all down her arm and all over her shirt. ‘Please don’t do that.’ I want to kiss her, show her that she’s not alone. I would even give her a baby if that was what she wanted. But she only wanted Zeke. The only reason she wanted a baby was because it was Zeke’s.
Tylor you scare me!’ Amanda says and starts crying. ‘You’re my best friend! Stop hurting yourself!’
‘My life isn’t worth living! Zeke’s gone now, forever.’ She whispers. ‘That baby… That was the last thing I have from him.’
‘Come on. Let’s get you cleaned up then we can talk about it.’ Amanda says. We walk her out to the lounge room and sit her on the lounge. Sally and Jesse are instantly at her sides, comforting her. Amanda and I walk around the house getting towels and bandages for her arms. ‘I can’t believe she keeps doing this!’ Amanda says.
‘I know it’s upsetting when your friends hurt themselves.’ I say and hug her.
‘Not just the cutting though. She likes you, a lot and you obviously like her but she thinks if she starts dating you she’ll upset Zeke. She doesn’t want to believe he’s dead.’ I wish people would stop telling me how much Tylor likes me. It’s depressing. It makes me think of what could have been, but isn’t.
‘What so she just won’t date again?’ I ask as we walk out to the lounge room.
‘Eventually she will.’ She says; but that’s as far as our conversation can go, unless we want Tylor to know we’re talking about her.
Tylor’s POV
Sitting on the spare bed, looking at my favourite photo EVER taken, a tear rolls down my cheek. ‘You two look really happy.’ Bradie says sitting next to me on the bed. ‘I wish I could see you happy.’
‘He made me happier than anything. Nothing could ever make me that happy again.’ I say not trying to be mean, just stating the truth.
‘I know, but I can try.’ I turn around to face him and wrap my arms around his body, my head on his chest. He is so good to put up with all of this.
‘Thanks for saving me.’ I mumble into his chest. ‘Even though you probably shouldn’t have.’
‘Why shouldn’t I have saved you?!’ He says pulling me back to look into my eyes.
‘Because I just am a pain for everyone.’
‘Just don’t do… those things then…’
I ignore that, ‘Bradie I’m not ready for someone to take Zeke’s place just yet. I know that’s what you want but I can’t love you.’ I say, feeling like the biggest bitch ever.
‘I know.’ He says and stands up. ‘I’ll let you be, but I just want you to know I will always be here for you. I will wait until you’re ready to move on then try again. Even if I have to wait for years because I think love you. No matter what, I’ll be here, when you need me.’ He walks out of the room before I can even process what he just said. He is in love with me.